Monday, July 20, 2015

The wait is over!

Have you ever felt so many emotions all in one day that when someone asks you "How are you?" you feel confused, unable to answer in a short answer, and need about an hour to actually tell them how you really are doing. I am not a fan of small talk. I enjoy long conversations, including real life stuff, asking questions back and forth over coffee that grows cold half way in to the conversation. I crave this kind of life-sharing! Lately I haven't had enough of this and I need it. Tell me I am not alone in this!

The Engineer and I are at a great place in our marriage, and we are contemplating what is next. If you have been around here for a while, you'll know we have struggled immensely in our short 3.5 year marriage with infertility, failed adoption, and my diagnosis with MS. And y'all, that stuff is rough. But knowing I have this sweet man by my side and knowing that Jesus has our hearts and know the plans He has for us, well then I can make it through anything.

And then, all in one day things can change dramatically. Things you have waited for, wanted, prayed for, cried over, pleaded with God about....they just sort of happen. We have never given up on having our own children. We have always tried, every month that I was allowed to try (MS testing forbid us from trying for about 6 months last year) we would try to have a baby. I even started using essential oils on a daily basis, especially the ones that help support a healthy reproductive system and for energy support. Three and a half years of trying resulted in a positive pregnancy test late in May of this year!! We are over the moon and so thrilled at how things have happened and how God orchestrated it all for us! I am currently about 12 weeks pregnant and definitely beginning to show the baby bump!! We got to see and hear the baby a week ago and he/she was just flipping and dancing around with a strong heartbeat! It feels surreal and I still have to remind myself every day that I am pregnant and this is really happening (but then I see my reflection in the mirror and there is no doubt in my mind that there is a baby growing in there! HA!). Baby is due to be here, Lord willing, at the end of January 2016!

Having MS and being pregnant is actually wonderful. Typically people with MS do not experience many, if any, symptoms while pregnant. My neurologist is pretty sure I will stay in remission through out pregnancy. I have been feeling really good and have not had any issues at all with MS symptoms in the past 8 months! I am so thankful! If we can just bottle this up so I feel this great forever, that'd be awesome!! We will just start praying now for after I give birth that MS will stay in remission!

We are really rejoicing in the Lord about this pregnancy and know this baby is HIS! We are so thankful for the many who have prayed for us and with us through the years for a child! We both were made to be parents, and I cannot wait to be parents with my Engineer! We know what infertility feels like and the wait and wait and wait that we had to endure. In my first ultrasound they found a large cyst on my left ovary and a smaller cyst on my right ovary and could fully diagnose me with PCOS from those images. I knew from the symptoms that this was the cause of our infertility, but this confirmed it. We are so blessed that an egg made its way out of one of my ovaries!! Only God can make things like that happen when there are things blocking the path! He always makes a way! He is so good! We are so thankful!

I understand Hannah's heart from the Bible. How she wept and prayed for children for years, and then one day everything changed and she was pregnant and had a healthy little boy named Samuel. And she praised God for the blessing of the child. I also identify with Abraham and Sarah who never felt like they would have children, and how she laughed when God told her she would have a child! I have laughed more about this pregnancy and baby than I have cried! I love how God has given us His word in order to identify with people and know He understands our hearts, our pain, as well as our joy.





27 I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him.
1 Samuel 1:27

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

My new favorite thing!

I have researched and read about this for almost a year now. I did not want to jump into this without knowing a little bit of everything. I think my husband is amazing for listening to me ramble on about this and that. It is true. I have consumed the Kool-Aid of Essential Oil mania! I fell in love with Young Living Essential Oils. And I want to tell you about it...because they have helped me so much! Now, I am not a doctor, but I do know from my own personal experience that Young Living Essential Oils have helped me!!

Most of you know, I was diagnosed with MS last September. I was experiencing many symptoms before my diagnosis, but we weren't sure what was going on. I started looking into the oils and other ways to improve my life (supplements, yoga, diet, etc). I drastically changed my diet last year and began the Trim Healthy Mama lifestyle. Many of the mamas talked about the oils and supplements. So, I started researching as much as I could! I wanted to know the details, what they helped with, how to use them, etc. I started seeing a few friends post about the oils, specifically Young Living and so I began asking questions and I bought my first oil: Peppermint!



I always dilute my oils, mostly so they last longer and because oils like peppermint are considered "hot" oils and need some diluting for sensitive skin. I dilute using coconut oil or olive oil.

The next oils I bought: Thieves, Lavender and Cedarwood. Lavender and Cedarwood are very calming and help me relax (always dilute cedarwood, but lavender you can put on "neat" or straight on your skin without dilition). I use Thieves on my feet every single day! I work in a public library and you just never know what kind of germies are around! I love knowing that I am protecting myself without using harsh chemicals!

And I knew I couldn't stop there, that I wanted a diffuser and I wanted more oils! So, I saved for a month and bought the Premium Starter Kit! Y'all. It is THE. BEST. DEAL. EVER. $150 for 11 oils, a home diffuser (a $90 value), a starter kit for sharing, 2 samples Ningxia Red, and 10 samples to pass out to friends/family. It is the best ever! So many oils are included and you get a 24% discount on oils for life! You never have to share, or you can share away and build a business! It is one of the best companies out there, and THE BEST for essential oils.


So, as I learn more I will share with you all here. I am amazed by the oils. They help me so much! I also think it is important to share with you all that just because I am using the oils doesn't mean I am not listening to my doctors. I will continue to use my MS meds and give myself an injection 3x a week to hopefully slow in the progression of this disease. I will continue any and all tests that my doctors need me to do. I just know the oils have enhanced my quality of life and bring me better health and wellness. They are not a cure or a substitution for my other medicine, and they do have to be reapplied frequently for maximum results. I have been feeling better for the past 2 months, and I thank the Lord for that, my MS meds, and the oils for helping me! It feels so good to be healthy! 

I believe and trust in Young Living oils because of the promise they see as their calling: "Seed to Seal". From the seed of every plant to the seal of every bottle, there are incredible standards in place that they do not compromise. EVER. No other company says that. No other company makes that kind of promise and sticks to it. So, I trust them for me and my family!



So, that's what I am learning. I am constantly researching and building my knowledge on the oils. I would love to have some of you local people over for a class. If you would like to know more, let me know! I would also love to share my discount with you! I get a 24% discount. I am placing an order this Friday, February 20th. So, let me know if you would like to try something! I pray blessings and wellness over all of you!

Much love!!



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Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Walking through the fire...

Before I even begin to write what is on my heart today, I just have to say that I have the best people on the planet. If you read this, you are considered one of my people. And I am thankful for each and every one of you. Your kind words and encouragement blessed me beyond words yesterday. I was all teary-eyed and blessed! Thank you.

And at the same time, I know the Lord wanted me to post that process yesterday. He knew I would need the extra encouragement. He just knows these things, y'all. He knew I would get a phone call from my doctor yesterday morning. Just 2 hours after my post went live. Some people don't share this much. But, for me, I have to.

I had my last MRI yesterday (which is a praise in itself...being in that tube/tunnel 5 times in the past month is pretty awful and definitely not my favorite thing in the world) and my doctor called me a little while later to let me know the lesions in my brain, the spinal fluid from my lumbar puncture 2.5 weeks ago, blood work, etc all concluded that I do, in fact, have MS. I still have a few more tests...but from what they know right now, this is MS. And y'all, that just stinks. Plain and simple, it has been a rough 24 hours sifting through my emotions. I think I knew this was coming...in the back of my mind I had a feeling this was it...I just didn't want it to be so badly.

Some of my first thoughts have been:
Could I have prevented this somehow? I don't think so...but it's just a thought I have had.
I don't really want to have a debilitating disease for the rest of my life.
I don't really want to be on medication for the rest of my life.
How bad will it be? How often will I have flare ups?
Can we still have children? I mean, I think so, but will this make things even harder than they have been?
I just want to be able to do what I love to do. I don't want to be held back by anything.

And, I am just flat out disappointed. I feel like we have gone through so much in our almost 3 years of marriage. This is just another thing to add to the list of many things we have struggled through. I need some hope. Some light at the end of the tunnel. Some good news. I just need something to look forward to.

What I do know:
This stinks! Like really bad.
I am surrounded by the best people. Seriously, y'all ROCK.
I know God knew this was going to happen. He is aware of my heart, my needs, my emotions, my healing. I know He still loves me.
I need to keep surrounding myself with people. I know enough about myself to know isolation is NOT good for me. But I also don't want to do too much and be too tired. Such a balance and a struggle!
I have another test tomorrow to make sure my optical nerve is not damaged.
I have an appt with my doctor in a week to discuss plans for medication, further steps, etc.

So, for now, I need encouragement and your prayers for me and the engineer. I need people to listen and not throw medical jargon at me. I need to just be able to be me. I don't want MS to define me. I don't want every conversation to be about this. I want to share, but don't want it to be all that I talk about.

My sweet friend sent this card to me today with this beautiful verse in it...clinging to this today:
Isaiah 43:2-3
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
So, I guess we will get close to the fire...but it will not consume me. And, again, I am not alone. Thank you for hearing me. Thank you for walking this road with me.
 

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